Spoonfulls of Change

Fast forward through twenty years of being overweight, out of breath, out of energy and unable to do half of the things I wanted to do, unable to find clothes that fit with no sense of security or confidence in myself.... I had finally had enough.

I had grumbled about being fat and out of shape for the last time(at least without doing something about it).

I started slowly, of course, because I wanted lasting change in my life...I wanted to lose 100 lbs and NOT gain it an another 20 back in six months. I wanted to HAVE the body I saw in my minds mirror.... to be able to see it in the real mirror looking back at me. Hell, I wanted to be able to walk around the block and not have to stop and rest, and I wanted to be able to bend over and tie my shoes. So, I quietly started removing things from my personal diet....slowly adding new and exciting healthful options.

Well, I didn't actually do it quietly, my best friend got a thousand earfulls during this time. The cool thing about that is he encouraged me to continue this journey of walking away from unconscious eating and lethargy. He quite literally basked in my excitement for change, and life and the possibilities of recreating myself. I think he caught the fever, even if just to push me further.

So I stopped eating fried foods, and increased my veggie intake, started experimenting with a dietary lifestyle that edged around vegetarian (edgetarian? lol). Tried to make the perfect black bean burger....still working on that one.... and discovered the joy of egg white omelettes with spinach and mushrooms and that I like them better than traditional omelettes.

And after all this miniscule change that I was soooooo very proud of (and still am) I STILL had a heart attack.

But although it might have knocked me out of the game for a minute....and I gained a shit ton of weight... the heaviest I have ever been at 315, fortunately most of that was water and a properly applied diuretic brought me back to where I was pre-attack... I came back smarter and more determined than ever.

(So in the smarter more determined process, I have been in the gym nearly every day since February and have lost 6% of my body fat and gained somewhere around 15 lbs of muscle.... so I would say it's working)